It is finally Spring! I'm getting Spring fever and longing to put my hands in some soil. Yesterday it was very cold out, but today it is pretty hot. Today I enjoyed getting my hands in the soil to help a client plant some geraniums in the outdoor planters. On Sunday we may go shopping for some more geraniums and other plants.
Oh man, it was so hot in the summer during construction. Of course those were the days that I had two to three hour shifts back to back all day. Being in the car a lot was inesapable. And to top it all off, the air conditioner was very reluctant to kick out any cool air. Somehow I had to arrive at work looking professional, in spite of the sweaty conditions. I wish I would have had an ac compressor at the time. It might have been more of comfort. Definitely, I will be attending to that this year. No more sitting in construction feeling like I will die of heat exhaustion.
Sometimes more answers arise from your own intuition than by asking other people for advice. I am now having this experience. If I had listened to my own intuition sooner I would posssibly healthier, definitely be happier, and would have less debt. Sometimes it is not possible for other people to know what is right for us, even as much advice as they give with the best intent. Some synchronicities are currently happening. I am being led back to things I gravitated toward before which may hold answers to current dilemmas, but led to these from someone contacting my spiritual guides. How interesting it was that I gravitated toward these foods and aromas before.
As a child, my sex education was from books with popout folds which explained how babies were conceived, and showed pictures of them in the womb. I was educated naturally to wait till marriage to have intercourse because of our religious affiliation. We also had about 20 animals (ducks, goats, cats, chickens, and at one time a dog), and it was impossible to not know how procreation works, with the female cat getting pregnant a couple times a year. For me, unexposed to television, popular culture, or public school, there was no misinformation passed around, and sex was no joking matter. However, the gaps in my education may have been that although the message was to abstain until marriage, no one really explained the hurt that can come from not abstaining, and no one explained how hard it is to abstain when your hormones are going off - or tips for how to abstain. The only person I knew who got pregnant out of wedlock was a target of gossip. The myths were at the time that those who got pregnant out of wedlock were somehow bad spiritually. Some myths I have heard are those that you can't get pregnant if you do it only once. But in fact, you can.
Coming from a religious background, I assumed that having little to no sex drive was nothing to be concerned about - because you could just accept it and do other more important things with your life. I wish I had known other information about sex at the time, and wish I had known that having little sexual desire actually means that you have health problems that need to be addressed. To have been able to do research from sites like http://Sex.Healthguru.com/ may have been able to give me a broader perspective than the one that I have been carrying the last 15 years and might have been useful.
Visualizing a firm goal - get out out cc debt completely in 27 months - has been very useful. Because I had to confront both my reluctance to stop buying right now what I can't afford, and also to make the determination of how much extra money I need to generate every month to do that, and FINDING ways to do that every day, instead of assuming it was impossible to do in such a short amount of time.
This decision and visualization, combined with a spreadsheet in Excel, to track progress, is incredibly useful. It is interesting to track each earning as it is earned, and realize that little bits of effort really do add up.
